As I am about to hit the big 3-0 soon, I’ve had a lot of realizations and insights about life and love in general. It’s interesting how a lot can change in a decade. Since the past few days, I’ve been looking back at how I did in my early 20s until now. (I hope this isn’t a premonition. LOL)
The Early Twenties
Ah…fresh from college. Those days when I was thinking big and being idealistic when all that mattered were my short-term goals and happiness. I started to earn my own money, I bought whatever I wanted and travelled whenever I could. I was careless and reckless. I went through heartaches, thinking it was the end of the world. The thought of getting married and having kids scared the hell out of me. I didn’t want to go through what my parents went through. I didn’t want my child to go through what I went through. I wanted to make the most out of my life so I wouldn’t regret anything when I reach my thirties. I’ve learned that you’ll never be truly happy knowing that you’ve hurt someone. I started to drift apart from my old friends who’d only reach out whenever they needed something and I realized who the real ones are. I held grudges. I was immature.
The Late Twenties
I started to work on my long-term goals. I met “The One“, the love of my life, the one I saw myself spending the rest of my life with. My views on marriage and having kids started to change. We made big plans for our future until a series of unfortunate events happened. Life can give you a huge slap in the face and throw rocks when things are supposedly already doing well. I learned to give up my own happiness for others. I learned to forgive. I opened myself to learning new things, things that I never thought I could do. I joined triathlons and marathons when I hated running in the first place. I was dependent on my significant other that I had to find myself again. I learned that I should love myself first before I can love again.
A new life awaits, another chapter begins. Life can be full of surprises, a never-ending journey of knowing yourself.